I need some advice. I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for at least 20 years. We have been married before and we talk about marriage with each other but haven’t done it up because of a situation that came up 3 1/2 years ago. I found out that he was talking to my best friend behind my back and was told from another person that there was more going on. I left him for 2 months after that and then decided to take him back because I felt sorry for him and thought I still loved him. I let her in my home and we did everything together with not knowing what was going on behind my back. He knew she wasn’t my friend and pretend that she was. I know it’s been years since this happened but it is still haunts me. I can’t get over the fact that he let it happen and now I am living with him and so hurt that he could do this with no conscience. He acts like he didn’t do nothing wrong but talk to her behind my back and she would call him to talk about me. All I want is the truth and how he be so innocent that he did this. I guess what I am saying is how do I stay with this man after he did this? When he was married before he did it to his wife as well and now he’s saying he’s changed and he loves me and doesn’t want to lose me but I just can’t go on but not sure if I can just let everything go that we built together. My ex-husband abused me too and I feel so unworthy. Any advice that you could give me would be great. Thanks for your time.