I got my ass kicked by my ex, a full blown narc. What she did to me has left me empty, so lost I don’t know who I am. What’s real and what’s not. I can’t sleep, can’t think, I’m afraid and hyper vigilant to what’s coming next. The sound of silence scares me to death. I was punished in so many different ways. Jail seems to be one. False charges for fun. 9 years still I’m alone. She told me she faked the whole 13 years, but she tried. No, I tried and got more pain shoved down my throat than I can handle. She told me the only reason for her to ever call is to use me. She has taken me for a bunch of money, way too much for me to type. The point is I’m on the edge of a cliff, ready to die. I can’t get this out of my head. I’m confused all the time. How can someone be so cold hearted to a man that loved her more than was possible? I’ve changed so much I don’t know who I am. I don’t leave my house much, I avoid everyone. I hate my life and what she has done to me. Even after I got away, she kept coming back to finish me off, punishment you see for custody of our daughter. Everything she drilled into my brain is so far in there it’s tearing me apart. Please help me or just kill me I beg you. I hate being me. If you only knew the whole story. I saved her life in the beginning and now ready to end mine.