I don’t expect sympathy for what I’m about to say. I’m a narcissist. I know I’m not a nice person. I don’t want to be the way I am but I can’t change. I’ve tried but nothing ever lasts. Relationships don’t last. People leave. Everyone that ever knew me has left me. I don’t want to be on my own. I have never admitted to anyone who I am. Life sucks being like this but it’s the way we are. I wish you people would understand that some of us don’t want to be this way. I know why people leave me because of the way I am. I want them to stay but they’ll never know that. I can’t let people know that it is going to hurt when they go. That would be like admitting I need them, showing my vulnerability which only I know about. Can’t let anyone see the soft side but it’s there, always hidden, only visible to me. Yea, what a great person I am!