I made the huge mistake of breaking the no contact rule I had in place. My narc ex husband of over 8 years recently started being nice and communicating about our children. I knew it was a matter of time. I even warned our kids not to get their hopes up, my almost 19 year old was leery, but my 13 almost 14 year old was hopeful. Well it only took a week, but here I am kicking myself and feeling so stupid. I let him get to me, I let him bring up the past, mock me, criticize me as a mother, indirectly call me a deadbeat (I am now paying him child support) and he got in my head…again. I had worked so hard to keep him out. I thought I could keep the boundaries this time…ha!! What was I thinking? He will never stop being hateful and evil and mean. My poor kids are suffering his mental/verbal abuse and I’m worried about my son. He convinced him at 12 to live with him…he told him I lied in court and took our kids from him, so I owed him. My poor son was manipulated into living with him full time and I only have visits. Now I’m concerned for my son’s mental health. My daughter lived there for 1 year when she was 17 1/2 and she called that year hell. I have so much guilt for bringing these beautiful amazing children into hell. I have once again told my ex no contact. I am still trying to block the things he said to me and trying to forgive myself for attempting to reason with the unreasonable. I knew better.