Why do I feel so guilty?

Why do I feel so guilty?

I’m in midst of leaving my partner, whom I believe to be narcissistic.  Why does it leave me feeling so empty, so lost, like I’m still holding out for that shred of hope?  She called me a “mongo” aside from the many other things, idiot, retard, the lies, cheating, anger towards me… telling me I’m too sensitive, that I’m weird, that I’m the one who is nuts.  3 years of this and I still feel guilty for leaving…which I’m doing quietly as I feel it’s the only way…I worry that she will become homeless, yet I’m going into homeless housing…why do I feel so guilty?!?!?!

2 thoughts on “Why do I feel so guilty?

  1. I felt so much guilt. It took me a while to over come that. I pressed charges of assault on her and she is on an avo. At first I felt so horrible for putting her out. But it saved me. I’m a better person for it. Trust me. Try and better your self before her. Xx

  2. in my situation guilt was a way to control me. most likely that has been the case with yourself. This is a way they use to keep you in their grasp. After numerous short break ups and emotional tug backs I have been out for a little over three months. The guilt I felt was horrible. But it was not mine to take. They have no conscious or remorse. I always felt guilty for things that were not my doing but her doing. It is just a way to keep you down and before you know it you are feeling bad about everything in the relationship. A lot of times I would know in my heart and head that the way I felt wasn’t my fault but loved her so much I would do anything to have peace. including accepting false blame. Recently she is trying to suck me back in and I am fighting an emotional battle to stay away. it is extremely difficult. Mostly because we think on a normal basis that things are repairable. the thing is that’s not the way they think. It is very difficult to deal with. God is helping me threw it and is my strength and my shield.

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