It’s hard to wrap my head around it

It’s hard to wrap my head around it

I know my little girl’s father has this disorder… I went through the stages of being held high by him only to be cast away with no real reason… In the 14 years I have known him he is at his worst with me, I am the enemy. I’m the manipulative one, I’m the one who’s too emotional etc., according to him. Last night he took me and our 10 year old out to dinner. Things were going well,  his cell phone service had been shut down for quite some time. I noticed him pulling out a new phone several times during our outing. I said “Oh you finally got a new phone?” He then tells me it’s a cheap one disposable and had had it for two days. I’m thinking “wow 2 days and couldn’t give me, the mother of his only child the number?”  I asked him why he hadn’t shared his new number with me, of course he had an excuse that he had been exhausted from working 120 days straight. Really?? He’d come home and watch TV for 2 hours. He had time to put other people as contacts into the phone.  He had time to take me out to dinner. Of course I was hurt and of course that angered him. So …is it true that this man never did love me? It’s hard to wrap my head around it… Why doesn’t he leave like I ask him to??  How do I run and not look back when there is a minor child involved??

2 thoughts on “It’s hard to wrap my head around it

  1. Without a doubt he intentionally showed you his new “toy” aka phone diverting the attention to HIMSELF…Never forget LIFE is all about HIM and NOTHING OR NO ONE ELSE. IF he has made a choice to delete you from his contacts that is speaking volumes. He will never stop craving attention or doing things to get it. YOU will always be a victim of his cruelty and narcisstic ways UNTIL you make it PRIORITY to IGNORE his behaviors. Its a very difficult process but you CAN do this and when you do you will find LIFE has MUCH to offer YOU. Good Luck and God be with you as you MOVE FORWARD!

  2. My guess he loved you or loves you, but this kind of sickness he has can’t be fixed by loving him unconditionally. Believe me I tried.

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